The Build Up

Something is on your mind and you don’t want to talk about it. Days go by — this infectious idea keeps gnawing away at your sanity. You start to feel nervous, anxious, frustrated, fearful, and your body tenses up at seemingly everything. The longer you hold it in, the worse it gets.

The emotional stress builds up inside you, effectively making you a ticking time-bomb. The thoughts get louder and you start to lose focus on everything else. It becomes physically noticeable to the point where people are asking you if you’re okay and inquire about what might be bothering you. You refuse to let them in. Despite the emotions bubbling inside you, you refuse to tell anyone because you tell yourself you can handle it alone and don’t need anyone’s pity or concern.

Eventually it reaches a point where the energy needs to be expended. Something needs to give, the energy needs to be expelled from your body. Several things happen; you lash out at everyone for the smallest inconvenience, you break down in tears and wail for who knows how long, you unload everything at the next person who asks if you’re okay and completely disregard any personal boundaries; you blow up.

All this build up, all this stress, all this toxic behavior that happens because something was on your mind and you didn’t want to talk about it. Everything can be avoided by voicing those thoughts. Confide in those you trust, whether it be a family member, a friend, or a therapist.

Avoid the build up by tearing it down as soon as it lays its foundation.

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